Maybe you saw it coming. I sort of saw it coming, but I did what I am best at -- I swept it under the rug. I ignored what I knew was going to happen.
I'm having a major identity crisis.
It's been seven months since we left the LEO life and moved into a completely new and foreign land -- literally and figuratively. I'm still at a loss for what to do, and most shockingly, who I am.
It really struck me this morning, as I was trying to 'introduce' myself in the online world. The first things to say were "LEO wife, mom of four..." and then I stopped short. What? I'm not a LEO wife anymore, and while I may be a mom of four since when do I only define myself by other people? Everyone jokes about that -- once you are a mom you completely lose your "own" identity. But why? Why is that funny? IT'S NOT FUNNY.
When I think of who we are as a family, I think "LEO family on sabbatical." But my husband is pretty darn sure he's not going back into law enforcement. So where does that leave me? A dear LEO wife friend was lamenting some LEO-family-specific issues and she felt so bad. "Can you even relate to me any more? Do you want to change the subject?" Wow. Shockingly, I still define myself by that LEO family title. And Wife. And....
Really. Who Am I?
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