Although I think about you all the time, it's been about five months since I've visited you. I've been so busy. I know you can't really relate, seeing as how your visit count has never really been all that high. But this blog was never about you, was it? It was all about me.
So, as I was saying, I've been busy. Do you remember I was pregnant with kiddie #4? Well, I had labor pains with that baby for almost my entire third trimester. Oh man, was that scary. Eventually I did deliver that baby (a girl, to my utter shock!) and only a week early. She was huge, 8 pounds 11 ounces. That's huge for me, especially since my first kid was only 5 pounds 13 ounces. Well anyway, thankfully I didn't almost die (like another lady in labor that day) but I sure had some damage which kept me, well, really injured for a while. The baby had a stay in the NICU because she had some complications, too.
The best part of all that is we now have a precious, sweet little girl. I'm almost completely healed, and for all this time my dear husband has been home helping with the kids and causing a ruckus. He's just gone back to work, and we'll see how long he lasts. :)
When little one (still haven't thought of a blog name for her yet.... not sure I'll need to, but we'll get to that) was about 2 weeks old we decided to move, and move we did. It was the first time in our marriage that we moved and boy, was it painful in so many ways. But we've moved and have a temporary landing spot for now, with most of our stuff in storage. [ED. NOTE: When you have most of your stuff in storage, don't watch Storage Wars with your kids. They'll freak out that someone's going to sneak in and sell your stuff while you aren't paying on your unit.]
My husband wants to quit his job. He's getting older, and I think police work just doesn't feel like his life dream. He doesn't feel like he's making a difference in his life. I think there are other reasons for that besides his job, but let's not digress now. I want him to be happy, but I also want him to be paying the bills if he wants me to continue to be the primary educator in our little homeschooling family. I was hoping his little break from work after the baby would give him some clarity on what he wants to do. Instead, he took care of me and the kids and moved and took a three week vacation. Not too exciting, and definitely no clarity there.
So, dear blog, it's been harder for me to get by to visit you. I guess I also don't need you as much any more. I don't have so much angst over my husband's job, which I would ruminate on and think about via this outlet. Although I wouldn't know what it would be like to be married to not-a-cop any more, I've finally realized I'd still have the same husband. Sure, maybe he wouldn't have permission to carry off duty any more like he does 24/7 now (he'd be permanently off duty!), he'd still have the same personality and heightened awareness of life. So if I'm not back too often, please don't take it personally. It's me, not you.
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